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I apologise, I know I have before. I’m not really doing particularly good in my self. This hit me a couple of days ago. And it’s what I wrote today. It hasn’t been edited, I kind of want that out there. I struggle in life yet im capable, but just can’t find a context that supports that that I am, and the corruptors will collapse it there. Now Corruption has a thread to weave.

Im me, I’m a single person. Im barely making existence.

So after semi piecing myself back together after an intensive period of analysis and writing work while supporting family concern, I managed to earn myself $16k last financial year after brain surgery while under a court order to vacate my parents premises with a intention to sell notice from the landlord. 

After home caring and supporting my folks through alzheimers and dementia in addition to the intensive writing analysis period that shows evidence of affecting world consciousness, I have needed some support from the welfare system while I get back on my feet. 

I’m not really back to myself, but apart from missing one booking and double booking twice over a period of a year and a half, I’m keeping on top of it. My book work is done, my bills are paid and tool maintenance 99.5%.

I began working as soon as I came off my medical certificate and was super pleased to find that I could transition into Small Business Support. I’ve run my own business before that I had to close due to life demands, though it was still distant from a wage. 

So after applying for the support program I was advised that I would have to provide my cash flow / profit and loss for a period of two from the end of last year. Yeah no worries, I can provide that. It’s stuff I go to do for tax anyway, so happy to get all the records up to speed now. Super exited at the prospect of getting some proper small business back round training. 

I’ve just opened the paper work for the financial requirement. THEY WANT TO KNOW EVERYTHING. Value of all my assets; vehicle, tools, computer, phone, furniture and (?) personal effects !. Then there’s the expenses, not how much I spend on my business. No they want every bill that I have, cost of clothing, transport costs, entertainment / recreation expenses, how much I spend on food and groceries, my fuel expenditure; not how many kilometres and fuel costs for the business, just FUEL. Insurance costs, health expenses, vehicle repairs, goods purchases, if I’ve travelled interstate, home maintenance expenses and how much I’ve spent on Gifts !!?!! *%# #^!=. ETC 

Now I was jumping at this chance, really thinking this could be a good thing. But it is crushing me in a process that is very evidently designed To crush. 

I understand there is a place for business forecasting etc, but we’re just trying to get off the ground. Doesn’t a simplicity such as, what’s your income at the moment ? Is that covering costs ? We have two months of profit and loss, so we can factor that in. But no, we just get ripped with a considerable intrusion into our personal lives and smashed with a Major Trauma Wall. You don’t need to know the value of my assets and how much I spend on gifts. Do you have debts and are you covering costs ? That should suffice to just start getting off the ground. 

So many of us are going through considerable life trauma. Placing civil servants into trauma has even been promoted as a key strategy.  So how is that expanding into day to day life ? We, as a civilisation and society have vast research available on trauma response. So how does that transpose into civil interfaces ? Ask a Veteran, or anyone going through the incrementally increasing life trauma that many are experiencing what impact “that simple little form” poses. 

Now I know, if you look at or review it point by point, any wrong doing goes away. And I, me, and many in similar situation, veterans included, to easily get dumped into the Dehumanisation ponzi scheme. “These people just don’t want to work”, “There’s no hope for them”; and then it starts to branch. “Fkn F’n dumb nigers”, Fkn hippies, just don’t want to work”. “What. Trauma ! Get off your arse you lazy bum”. And it provides a lot of fodder for many who do some how end up in a, (I’ve work small business most of my life, so) low demand, high paying job in the trickle down economics selective employment scheme. 

Now I know that trickle down economics is being called as a ? Hoax. I’ve even seen reputable politicians call as such. Congratulations, you may just find a chance to realise in doing so you are serving the phantom / corruption empires. What you don’t think it works ? Who’s being backed with big money in politics and CORPORATE VENTURES. 

Who they employ. 

Now we’ve got psycho billionaires siphoning government funds like it’s a thick shake drinking competition, with those thinning it down being called as “fair strategic play”. We have prime ministers, cabinet members, presidents and corrupt security forces taking position without so much as even a background check, but Us….. We, humanity the people are being destroyed by bullshit like THIS. 

Again I will ask. How is it that so many Veterans and talented people are homeless on the street ? 

I’m going to complete this form, I’ve asked for two weeks. Prices of groceries etc have escalated, and though I was previously living on fifty bucks a week, I need to review that now that a bag of shopping for two days can cost you a 50. 

I can’t do this at the moment, and I dare say that A Lot of potential entrepreneurs are in the same situation. Yeah I’m all for providing business related expenses etc. But what help is it to grow my business that the “GOVERNMENT” needs to know how much my years old way obsolete and about to stop

playing music unless I download the fatal upgrade telephone (there’s another maybe 50), and my broken laptop are worth ? How much I spend on clothes and food ? 

Bottom line is, mentally, I can’t do this. And I can’t go back to mechanics at this time. 

There is No Value in what THEY are demanding in order to proceed. 

I know that that “this guys just not trying (etc) comes in around here. I was working just before I came off my medical certificate, and under, or close to being under a court to vacate my now deceased parents, and yet I still put 50 hours into the garden, scrubbed the walls and every surface in the place, including the tops of the cupboard doors etc, while my folks where admitted to dementia ward, and me being a grateful child and a decent person largely because of their efforts, was visiting them as often as possible while still realising they have to settle into there new lives. 

It doesn’t matter what We do. THEY will, without humanity in themselves, connive systems that destroy humanity. 

So it’s a form, big deal. “Go get a job you bum”. 

So my curiosity here is, we have all this research in trauma response, but trauma is getting worse. Real Estates escalating rent costs, inflation, a machine, yet with some reprieve zones, is escalating out of reach for the deselected. Bills are going up, and corporate demands becoming STRONGER . But I’ve got to ask the question. With the all the money spent and donated to things such as cancer research, or trauma response. What’s the reason that for every dollar humanity allows, is the situation getting worse ? Like with have considerable volumes of additives in our food supply that are shown to trigger cancer. Yet no accountability is,   Allowed through the ? Process ? Then there’s all the toxins and forever chemicals being flooded into the world / planet / living environment . We have the research, but 

Yeah. Give the go ahead to decimate the Amazon, collapse the oxygen production systems of the ocean and land mass, destroy endangered species and precipitation generating forests for the “MEAT INDUSTRY” (because its (“food”), and throw a little trauma block form in for people just trying to tread water. 

For all it’s worth, if I hadn’t built this house. If I didn’t have my folks to help in the little ways they could. I’d be homeless now. And probably dead.